3-26-20 Day 13

I felt down for a good portion of the day yesterday.

And then Kaitlin called me and told me she most likely has Covid. Her symptoms match and her doctor agrees. There are no tests available for her to get confirmation. She feels terrible. Like, terrible in a very scary way. She isn’t able to get a full, deep breath. When she tries, she feels like she might throw up. Her body aches intensely. She wakes up in the middle of the night because she’s stopped breathing. And she still can’t catch her breath. I felt scared and worried for her. I still do, although I’m trying my best not to. Kaitlin is handling this so remarkably well. She is suffering, yes, but she is also doing her best to stay positive and not worry. I am so incredibly proud of her. My sister continues to step up in life in ways I never would have imagined she could or would do. She inspires me all the time and is such a rock for me that I feel frightened when she’s in pain. I wish I could do something for her to reduce her pain, but her body and medicine will have to do that for me. I wish I could go hug her and rub her hair but Kevin will have to do that for me. And when this is all over I’ll be spending loads of time with her.

So that news didn’t help my mood, even though Kaitlin told me to not stress about it (look at her thinking about me when she’s the one going through this. Isn’t she amazing?).

What did help my mood was video chatting with my meetup friends for two and a half hours. I didn’t even talk that much, but seeing their faces and hearing their voices was such a boost to my being. Every once in a while I would think, “Should I get off so I can go read?” and my reaction was always, “No, this is really good for me, just sit here and be with my friends.” We’ll be doing this once a week for the foreseeable future and I see myself scheduling other similar video chats with all the other people I love in my life.

So tonight is for reading and cross stitching. I encourage everyone to watch this video from a doctor about how to take precautions when grocery shopping and bringing groceries home. As I said a few days ago, I’ve struggled with taking this as seriously as I possibly should. But with hearing about Kaitlin’s experience, that’s not happening anymore, I’m taking this very seriously and I hope everyone else does too.

And now, for my happy moments of the day:

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